Today was a typical day for me being that I kept thinking about the life I am working my hands down to the bone to have. In the mist of moving forward sometimes quite often I began to hesitate and scare myself in hopes I would fallback into my depressed mode. I swear sometimes my mind act as if it’s my very own videogame like “Mr. Pacman” drastically running away in hopes my depression wouldn’t come behind and goggle me up whole. If the people around me was able to see how my mind plays with me everyone would be laughing their butts off literally. This is a never-ending battle I go through on the regular so nothing really get a major response from me anymore but I do actually laugh at myself alot and rarely cries because of it. Meditation has truly helped me be more aware of my triggers so that I wouldn’t allow any negativity to come in contact with my personal triggers. “One Step At A Time” is what I mentally repeatedly tell myself. Instead of pushing my emotions down I find a productive way to allow thes to slowly comeout in a positive way. Changing my perception of all experiences has made it possible to mature mentally.
Only if you have walked in the shoes of Depression or have witness someone who has until then can you understand the true mebtal battlefield that lies in the person’s mind. I have literally overcame most of the backlash from the individuals who think this is not a huge matter. The individuals who do not understand the magnitude of people who has Depression. Money has no effect on it because if it had the celebrities who had it and committed suicide base on the trick it plays on your mind. Robin Williams, Alexander McQuee, Lee Thompson Young, David Foster Wallace, Sylvia Plath, Aaron Swartz, and the list goes on. Do your own research *like I did* It helps to realize that 1.) YOU ARE NOT ALONE
2.) YOU ARE NOT ALONE
3.) STILL DESPITE HOW YOUR BRAIN IS TRYING TO MAKE IT SEEM YOU ARE ALONE…ONCE AGAIN REMEMBER YOU ARE NOT ALONE!
As a whole we have the ability to not just win against the stigma of “Depression” but to also educate people about it as well.
*UNBREAKABLE QUEEN'S LIFE LESSONS DIARY* 