MYSTERY AWARD

THANKFUL & BLESSED ARE A FEW WORDS THAT DESCRIBE HOW I FEEL RIGHT NOW😃 4 DAYS AGO I WAS PRESENTED THIS AWARD FROM A WONDERFUL BLOGGER Riddhima Penner. She is extremely talented and her poetry is amazing📝…you will be missing out if you do not check✔out her page. *Here is the link👉 A World Of Fantastic Poetry 👈*

📌Speaking of a great blogger I want to introduce the creater of the Mystery Award Okotoenigma👈Check out her page also👀📌

THREE FACTS ABOUT MYSELF ARE👇🙈🙉🙊👇

  1. I AM A BOOK WORM📚
  2. PAINTING IS MY NEW FAVORITE HOBBY🎨
  3. I HAVE A HUMONGOUS HEART ❤ & WOULD HELP ANYONE, ANYTIME, AND IN ANYWAY IF I HAVE THE ABILITY TO DO SO😊

MY QUESTIONS THAT WAS GIVEN TO ME ARE…

1.) Who is your favorite author? My favorite quote from her is Maya Angelo here are few of a few of my favorite quotes the QUEEN💬💎💍 HERSELF👇

2.) If you’re was asked about any 3 wishes of yours, what would they be? *To have a time machine so I could do a lot of things over again-Be more fearless with my life-Lastly, I would be more passionate about the life I live NOW!💐 *

3.) What influenced the name of your blog? *My Entire crazy yet exciting life*

4.)What genre of books you like to read and why? *I like to read any books that is made into a movie 🎥. I love to compare the book to the movie and see the similarities as well as the differences of the two.*

5.) 🙉Weird Question🙉 What would you do if you were given the unusual power for a day of that would allow you to stop time? *I would take the time to out to PAUSE.*

📝THANK YOU FOR NOMINATING ME & I WANT EVERYONE WHO MAY BE READING THIS TO CHECK OUT THE BLOGGERS I HAVE LINKED TO THIS POST! YOU WILL NOT BE DISAPPOINTED!

BROTHERHOOD OF THE WORLD AWARD

On January 18th of this WONDERFUL NEW YEAR 2018 gaillovesgod nominated me for the Brotherhood Of The World Bloggers Award. Even though many days have passed from the time I was nominated…BETTER LATE THAN NEVER!😊

CHECK OUT HER AMAZING PAGE👉GailLovesGod👈 is an amazing blogger who speaks from the ❤ and a sister of mine because WE ARE SISTERS WHO FATHER IS THE KING OF ALL KINGS 👑.We wear our crown with pride even if others may not see 👀 it! Thank You Gail ONCE AGAIN! She had given me some questions and here are my Q&A’s down 👇here…

  1. Where in the world 🌎 are you based? I am located on this amazing earth!
  2. What made you start getting into blogging? I always loved reading & writing so WHY NOT ATTEMPT SOMETHING NEW💁?!
  3. Summer or Winter? Winter⛄❄
  4. What makes you the happiest? I am the happiest when I am able to make others smile or happy 😊 HINT *PAY-IT-FORWARD*
  5. If you had to eat one food forever, what would it be? Spaghetti👍
  6. If you had one super power, what would it be? Fearless
  7. If you could change one thing in this world, what would it be? Everyone will PAY-IT-FORWARD on a daily basis! 💡So, whoever is reading this let’s do it!💡
  8. What are your some of goals for 2018? Smile more☺ Become healthier💪 & Become more in touch with myself emotionally👤…More on my new years resolutions👉 here👈
  9. Airplane ✈ holiday or Boat ⛵ Cruise? Airplane Holiday
  10. American or Europe holiday? Europe Holiday

In the spirit of Paying-It-Forward I have a few bloggers I want to nominate & the list is down below👇No time limit is place on this & no one is OBLIGATED to participate but check out their 📚GREAT TOPICS & IN SITE📚The blogging world 🌎 is massive and each & every blogger is unique in his or her special way!

  1. Love Survive
  2. MentalHealthYou
  3. TheCreativePTSDgal
  4. Beauty4Ashes247
  5. bebloggerofficial
  6. momof3isnuts
  7. girlinredlipstick
  8. WeGrowThroughOthers
  9. RawlingsGraphics
  10. WordsfromEliah

MY QUESTIONS ARE …

  1. HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN BLOGGING?
  2. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOR?
  3. WHAT IS THE TITLE OF YOUR FAVORITE BOOK?
  4. WHAT IS THE PURPOSE OF YOUR BLOG?
  5. WHAT IS ONE OF YOUR ALL-TIME FAVORITE QUOTES?
  6. WHICH OF THE FOUR SEASONS YOU LIKE THE MOST?
  7. IF YOU HAD ONE WISH, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
  8. HOW MANY LANGUAGES DO YOU SPEAK?
  9. HOW DO YOU DEFINE “A TRUE FRIEND”?
  10. WHAT DO YOU THINK IS THE PURPOSE FOR YOUR LIFE? *Explain in detail if you can*📚

What Should You Do?

What should you do…THAT IS THE QUESTION I AM REPEATEDLY ASKING MYSELF “What should I do”?! One minute everything is going great then BOOM🚨🆘🚨ALL HELL BREAKS LOOSE! I thought that after a few days everything will get better but despite myself motivated talks I still cannot get over the hump. I AM A STRONG TYPE OF WOMAN BUT SOMETIMES I WISH LIFE WOULD JUST GIVE ME A BREAK! At times when I am at my lowest and my vision👓 become blurry in the thick of it all I step away mentally as well as emotionally to fix the position of my crown 👑.

I hear👂 the expression “LET GO, AND LET GOD” and when I sit down and analyzed that statement I only hear 👂 this statement as a replacement…LET GO, AND *TRUST* GOD”. In order for this relationship to prosper you first must TRUST him.

If you think👀about it “TRUST” is something that to many *including myself* is hard to come by. I may present myself as cordial with someone doesn’t necessarily mean I TRUST him/or her. TRUST is something like the old says “TRUST IS EARNED, NOT GIVEN”. If I TRUST in God whole heartily “LETTING GO” is & will be a breeze. But before I turn over everything I have to have TRUST IN HIS VISION👓, HIS PLAN💡, HIS ACTIONS🎥, HIS PROMISE🌈, HIS CREATION🔬📐🎨*WHICH IS MYSELF* and also HIS LIFE LESSONS📚! Before you make the decision to LET GOD you must TRUST HIM🙏 WHOLEHEARTEDLY FIRST❤!

I may not be perfect but allow me to point out WHAT I DO KNOW ABOUT MYSELF & OTHERS WHO CAN RELATE 👇

  • 👉MY PROBLEMS DO NOT HAVE ME BY THE THROAT SUFFOCATING ME EASILY👈
  • 👉IF BY CHANCE I GO DOWN, PLEASE DO NOT COUNT ME OUT BECAUSE MY SETBACK MEANS NOTHING….STAY TUNED FOR THE COMEBACK THAT WILL BE COMING OUT SOON👈
  • 👉I AM NOT A PRODUCT OF MY ENVIRONMENT BUT I AM A PRODUCT OF THE CHOICES I MAKE DUE TO IT👈
  • 👉A DETERMINED PERSON IS A DANGEROUS INDIVIDUAL BECAUSE HE/or SHE WILL NOT ACCEPT DEFEAT OR SURRENDER EASILY👈
  • 👉BEFORE YOU WANT SOMEONE TO HAVE FAITH IN YOU…ASK YOURSELF “DO I HAVE FAITH IN MYSELF”? HOW EVER YOU REPLY IS YOUR ANSWER TO THE FIRST QUESTION👈
  • 👉MY PAST DOESN’T DICTATE MY FUTURE; IT JUST HELPED ME UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH STRENGTH I ACTUALLY HAVE👈
  • 👉THE ONLY WAY I WILL NOT ACHIEVE THE GOALS I STRIVE TO IS IF I REFUSE TO FINISH👈
  • 👉WITH EVERY NEW OPPORTUNITY COMES EVEN GREATER DETERMINATION👉
  • 👉THE MIND CAN EITHER MOTIVATE YOU, BREAK YOU OR SHAKE YOU BUT UNDERSTAND THE ONLY WAY THE MIND HAS THE POWER TO DO SO IS IF YOU ALLOW THE MIND THE POWER TO DO SO!👈
  • 👉THE CROWN HAS ALWAYS EXISTED…JUST FROM TIME TO TIME THE POSITION NEED TO BE ADJUSTED👑👈

Having mental or physical health issues is difficult as well as having personal problems. *financial, abusers, new environment by force, death of a loved one, no support, or something else that is stressful to max* No one has ever told me LIFE would be easy but at the same time no one told me it would be THIS COMPLICATED either💬 I know at some moments things can become extremely OVERWHELMING and you may want to run away 🏃 while screaming at the top of your lungs because to be completely 100% HONEST I HAVE HAD THE SAME EXACT URGE MULTIPLE TIMES to point I stopped keeping count. It’s normal but what I keep explaining to my own self “POSITIVE THOUGHTS BRING ON POSITIVE RESULTS WHEN YOU PUT ACTION BEHIND IT”.💡I even go farther by showing proof of the statement to myself. By acknowledging situations that I made it through successfully on numerous occasions. That in itself gave me the power to continue to press on when I felt like giving up. Not only did I *LET GO* BUT INSTEAD OF *LETTING GOD* I had to *TRUST GOD* FIRST! After completely those *TWO* the *LETTING GO* came automatically.

🙏LET GO, TRUST GOD, & ALLOW HIS PLAN TO GUIDE YOU TO THE DESTINATION HE HAS CUSTOMIZED JUST FOR YOU🙏

My DETERMINATION commonly get confused with “COCKINESS” OR “CONCEITED” which is something far fetched because I am NOTHING OF THE TWO😉.

MATURITY

Let Me Be Honest…When it seems like I am blogging inspiration to others it is 🔦INDEED TRUE🔦 as well as inspiring myself to desperately Keep Moving Forward👉 These past couple of months has been extremely overwhelming emotionally & physically. Instead of running to ALCOHOL 🍸, PILLS💊, OR HIDING FROM MY PROBLEMS like I did in the past…I did the unthinkable & ran straight into the core of it all! At some point I had to *face the music🎶 * Hiding do not help at all because eventually you get the urge to come out despite fully understanding the PROBLEM is still there. All you do is take precious time from your life that could be used.

I come to the realization that instead of asking “WHY ME?” Maturity has taught me to step 🚶 out of the box & look at everything at a different angle & stick with the angle that pleases me. It’s common for people to say “LIFE CHANGED ME” but my question to those individuals is “WHAT HAS MATURITY CHANGED”? I can say that *MATURITY* taught me TONS of different things and here are a few👇

  1. If a man can CHEAT with you that same man can cheat on you as well📘
  2. It is not necessarily about what you do while living but mostly about the footprints you leave after📘
  3. Instead of focusing on the problem…FOCUS ON THE SOLUTIONS(it can be more than one)
  4. *IMPOSSIBLE* is a myth…To support my theory the fact that the word *POSSIBLE* is seen in it📘
  5. Before you seek *LOVE💓* from another you must love YOURSELF FIRST📘
  6. Maturity has nothing to do with your age…It’s a mind frame type of thing📘
  7. Treat others the same as you would want someone to treat you📘
  8. If you cannot change a situation, change the way you see it & keep moving📘
  9. Give yourself credit even if others refuse to💪Only you know where you came from & how difficult the journey was for you to be at the place you are at now📘
  10. The way someone treats you only speaks on their character, NOT YOUR CHARACTER📘
  11. It’s easier to LOVE vs. HATE📘
  12. With STRENGTH comes GREAT COURAGE📘
  13. HATE is something that’s *TAUGHT* not given from birth📘
  14. Fairytale endings are realistic because if you one YOU MUST CREATE YOUR OWN📘
  15. Nothing is achievable without putting in THE WORK THAT IS NEEDED BEHIND IT📘
  16. Time is limited and should not be wasted📘
  17. THINK FIRST, SPEAK SECOND📘
  18. BREAK CURSES…START NEW & POSITIVE HABITS📘
  19. Do not give up before you even START📘
  20. There is a TIME & PLACE for EVERYTHING📘

In the past I would be so emotionally messed up that I could interpret my own THOUGHTS but now I can truthfully admit my RESPONSIBILITY in the choices I have made and MATURITY helped me GROW from each & every EXPERIENCE!

My question now is…WHAT HAVE MATURITY TAUGHT YOU? I would love to hear 👂your answers down in the comments👇💬

When You Think It’s Over…BUCKLE UP!

I am highly disappointed in myself for just stumbling on this REMARKABLE REAL LIFE STORY UNTIL NOW! Even though I am now just stumbling on I actually seeing it as one of my *SIGNS* and I am very blessed because of it.

One of the most difficult feeling is when someone feels as if NO ONE ON EARTH CARES. On many different occasions I have felt as such. Even after many “claim” to have my back I would hear from him/or her once something in their life was crashing but I can count on one hand✋the number of people who has generally been there. Despite not having the same from them I would not turn back completely because the saying says “Do unto others as you want others to do unto you”. I rather live my life positively no matter what! Too many do good ENTIRELY for the benefit of receiving something because of it vs. doing it out of the kindness of their ❤ heart. Why is it that helping others is now a endangered act? Why is that?! Despite what maybe going on in my personal life I make it a habit of PAYING IT FORWARD all throughout my day. Even if I have to brutally go into a fierce battle just to make it happen. Nobody has a “typical perfect” life please do not believe the hype! 📘Everyone has their own personal story to tell📘

By someone knowing firsthand the feelings of such why allow another to go through it alone? Out of the experience you dealt with help the other individual despite how you may feel at the moment. The smallest things can make the most MAJOR DIFFERENCE IN A PERSON’S LIFE.

In order to understand my mind state at the moment I would like to speak on the lady I stumbled upon…💡Antoinette Tuff💡 Please Google her name and maybe for those who need something to be the 🚧SIGN🚧 you are desperately waiting for allow her story to be that for you because at the moment I am allowing her story to be that for myself.

Here are some facts about her

  • Antoinette Tuff was the bookkeeper of McNair Discovery Learning Academy in Decatur, Georgia📜
  • Antoinette Tuff was able to talk 20-year-old Michael Hill gunman to surrender📜
  • At the time of the ordeal the student population was at 870📜
  • The gunman 20-year-old Michael Hill “stated he was off his medication and was not afraid to die”📜
  • This ordeal took place on Aug. 20, 2013📜
  • Michael Hill walked into a elementary school with an automatic rifle and almost 500 rounds of ammunition📜

All of this is online just google his name “Michael Hill” or google her name “Antoinette Tuff”…the thing that made me have a OMG moment is the fact that she was going through her own personal problems *BUT* despite her problems she had compassion in her heart ❤ for this complete stranger but used her situation as PROOF & TESTIMONY for this young man that if I can make it through you can do the same as well!

👉The link to the 911 call *Credited to YouTube* Hearing 👂this changed my mindset because who are we to give up without understanding that WE ALL HAVE A PURPOSE DESPITE WHAT WE MAY THINK OR FEEL! Giving up is not a option I will ever claim!

  • YOU MAY FEEL YOU ARE FED UP WITH EVERYTHING…KEEP PUSHING FORWARD
  • YOU MAY HAVE SPENT THE LAST WEEK CRYING EVERY SINGLE NIGHT🌙…KEEP PUSHING FORWARD
  • YOU MAY WANT TO FIND A CORNER TO ROLL UP IN…KEEP PUSHING FORWARD
  • IT MAY SEEM AS IF YOUR MENTAL ILLNESS IS EXHAUSTING TO THE POINT YOU HATE THE DAILY STRUGGLE OF IT…KEEP PUSHING FORWARD *Use your knowledge from experience to help the next individual who is newly diagnosed with the same as yourself*
  • You may have difficulties in your financial situation & are now extremely overwhelmed…KEEP PUSHING FORWARD
  • Multiple miscarriages, stillborns or even death of any a child of any age affect all parents…KEEP PUSHING FORWARD
  • Failed relationships romantic or friendship may seem painful at this present timeKEEP PUSHING FORWARD
  • You may diagnose with terminal illness and given so many years, months, weeks, days, hours, minutes, or even moments left on earth 🌎…KEEP PUSHING FORWARD *Make each moment count & reach out to others in order to leave your wonderful positive carbon print on this earth🌎

💪WHEN YOU FEEL AS IF EVERYTHING IS OVER….BUCKLE…IT IS ONLY OVER IF YOU GIVE UP & ALLOW IT TO BE OVER💪

Are You Listening?

  • How many times have you felt your gut may be trying to tell you something?
  • How many times have you tried to make a move but suddenly your legs refuse to take a step?
  • How many times have you felt as if you have been in a familiar place but cannot quite put your finger on it?
  • How many times you have refused to hear 👂 what the universe has been desperately trying to tell you?

There is a familiar saying that states “The truth can hurt you but it also will set you FREE!”. On many occasions individuals will avoid the God Honest Truth as if it’s better to keep living a bold face LIE. Well,allow me to be the first to tell you the TRUTH…”LET THE LIE YOU WANT TO BELIEVE DESPITE WHAT YOU MAY THINK….GO”! The longer you allow it to drag out will eventually cause you more harm later on.

💭I like to use myself for example because I can only speak from knowledge and experience from my actual life. I am perfectly fine with others who speak from another individual’s perspective but most counselors & mental health professional that really caused me to explore my actual frame of mind are the professionals who were able to speak from THEIR ACTUAL PERSONAL EXPERIENCE. I am extremely open minded and will take any advice if I can relate to it. “DIFFICULT STROKES, FOR DIFFERENT FOLKS” meaning what may work for some may not have the same results for others.💭

“Forget The Obstacle” that is affecting or has affected your life but ALWAYS REMEMBER the lesson that was taught from it. Life is difficult all the way around for everyone. Success comes from trying everything under the sun and never give up on the dream you want to come true. “Forget The Obstacle But Always Remember The Lesson!” This is something I Live My Life By 365 days in a year! This is my actual motto along with countless of others…if something sticks out to me I see it as *SIGN* and keep it pushing🏁🏃.

***I love the fact that every chance I am able to embrace the SIGNS THAT ARE THROWN IN MY DIRECTION… INSTEAD OF DODGING THEM I GRAB MY BAT & GET READY FOR BATTING SEASON***

👂Listen to the whispers of your soul and allow the words to speak before you do.👂 Use your heart to answer the questions you have asked. Speak with confidence as well as allow God to walk you around each difficult mountain that you have to face. If by chance you ear nothing mute all sound in order to HEAR IT CLEARLY. Allow your story📜 to show the world you are a WALKING TESTIMONY & IF YOU CAN STAND TALL WITH CONFIDENCE OTHERS CAN DO IT AS WELL! Look at your life as a success & nothing less. Use your life to help others who maybe in a similar situation! Pain is something everyone has had in their life. While listening to the whispers help those who truly needs it.💪The MOST AWARDING FEELING *FOR ME* ARE THOSE THAT COME FROM HELPING OTHERS.💪

PAY IT FORWARD & HELP OTHERS TO NOT FEEL LIKE YOU HAVE. IF YOU ARE ABLE TO HELP OTHERS YOU ARE A WINNER 🏆! Do you know know the difference of WINNERS VS. LOSERS…IF NOT I HAVE SOLUTIONS TO HELP YOU DECIDE & YOU TELL ME📝

WHICH ARE YOU? TELL ME IN THE COMMENTS👇💬

Hostage

What is holding you hostage in life? What is preventing you from enjoying life to the fullest? Physical hostage is the norm but despite what society thinks…YOU CAN BE HELD HOSTAGE EMOTIONALLY AS WELL. For example *DEPRESSION*!!!

  • 🔒YOU BECOME ANTISOCIAL🔒
  • 🔒SEE EVERYONE AROUND YOU AS A THREAT BECAUSE IT HAS TRICKED YOUR MIND INTO THINKING AS THE ENEMY🔒
  • 🔒YOU BECOME TERRIFIED OF THE WORLD & AVOID EVERYONE AS WELL AS EVERYTHING🔒
  • 🔒INSTEAD OF FACING SITUATIONS HEAD ON, YOU 🏃 AWAY AS YOU ARE IN TRACK🔒
  • 🔒YOU DO NOT LOVE YOURSELF & THINK NO ONE CAN POSSIBLY LOVE YOU BECAUSE OF IT🔒
  • 🔒INSTEAD OF TRYING THINGS OUT, YOU GIVE UP BEFORE YOU START🔒
  • 🔒YOU PLACE BLAME ON YOURSELF WITHOUT CONSIDERING ANY OTHER CONCLUSION🔒
  • 🔒NO LONGER HAVE THE DRIVE TO REACH YOUR GOALS🔒

I know first hand about being held hostage EMOTIONALLY because I am a SURVIVOR of it! I am currently experiencing flashbacks of the turmoil experience and trying to work through it. The biggest issue I am having is the fact that I WAS SUCH A STRONG PERSON BECAUSE LOOKING BACK I DID NOT LET THINGS IMPACT MY LIFE because my life always been a *LIFETIME MOVIE* so why would this impact my spirit so drastically? I am constantly MOTIVATING MYSELF AS WELL AS OTHERS BUT WHAT HAPPENS WHEN MOTIVATION IS AT A STANDSTILL?

*SIDEBAR* 💡I actually find myself when I slowdown from my day READING BECOMES A WAY TO RELAX. I ran across a post from mzukowskiblog that explained that when motivation is not enough switch it up and live your life by a CODE.

Reading this post gave me another option to consider because as the blogger states “MOTIVATION IS UNPREDICTABLE”. Since I am a fighter before anything else & refuse to go down without a fight I am going to go this route & live by a code. Thank you mzukowskiblog for giving me *MY SIGN*💡. Now back to the topic at hand.👇

Emotional hostage is something that others may not see at the moment because but eventually everyone will. In my particular case after keeping everything pushed down for sometime like the popular quote states “EVERYTHING THAT IS DONE IN THE DARK WILL EVENTUALLY COME TO THE LIGHT”. Things came to the surface it & I only has TWO OPTIONS…

  1. RUN🏃
  2. FACE EVERYTHING HEAD NO MATTER HOW TERRIFIED I MAYBE🚊

Mental illness is not the only EMOTIONAL HOSTAGE someone may have. Troubling relationships, guilt, fear, physical health limitations, addictions, insecurities, or even your low self-esteem can hold you hostage. Most of these with me all rolled into one with me. It took me understanding that INDEED I MAY HAVE DEPRESSION & ANXIETY BUT DEPRESSION DOES NOT HAVE ME & ANXIETY DOES NOT AS WELL. The tongue has more power then we may think and because of that how we word things is extremely important.

When I say “I have Depression” the reason I refrain from saying “Depression has me” is the fact that if I am able to have something…I have the power to let go of it as well. Depression no longer hold me hostage because I have determined my life has a purpose and I am determined to stay up float by any means necessary and everyone else who is being held hostage by anything should do the same as well. God made the choice to create each and everyone on this earth but WE have to decide what WE are going to do with *OUR* gift 🎁 of LIFE. The quicker we break free the faster we can discover our individual purpose. Before things can get better we have to ride through the storms. Once we make it through we become stronger mentally & physically but you first must regain your vision. Create tunnel vision and run 🏃to the finish line🏁with your head held high allowing your determination & drive to become greater than your problems.

There is absolutely nothing you cannot accomplish with a positive mindset and determination! It may seem hard to understand something with a closed off mind, body, and soul. Open yourself up to new options, new opportunities, new ideas 💡, most importantly new outlook on life as a whole!!! Trust me I know first hand how emotional hostage can destroy everything you thought you hold dear and close to your heart ❤ but the greatest blessings are those we worked so hard to receive. I do not believe something that is given instantly is greatly held at the same value as earned. My reasoning behind my opinion is this…A student that has made straight A’s throughout is indeed proud to graduate; now a student who needed a “C” average on their last test in to graduate had to intensely spent many nights studying for the “C” that was desperately needed. Fast forward to the day of reckoning to know if he/or she can walk 🚶 across the stage in order to receive their Diploma.

🙏Everything is not made for the weak & if God allowed it happen rest assure HE HAS GIVEN US THE STRENGTH TO WITHSTAND THE STORM THAT IS HEADED OUR WAY.🙏

SET yourself free from the bondage that is controlling your life HOSTAGE & WHEN MOTIVATION CANNOT CUT ✂ IT…GO ANOTHER ROUTE AND LIVE BY A CODE LIKE mzukowskiblog SAID!